as night comes, the panic increases; trapped inside worried, anxious, hopeless afraid of the dark again. outside, free from confinement worried, anxious, hopeful wide open spaces too wide, too open. planning when it's clear plans will fail doing nothing because doing has gone terribly wrong for some time scared to choose scared of options scared of everything that's different from what has gone before sure that what has gone before had to end what's left? right now just the coming night shadow and darkness