Painful Confluence

I am so shut down right now. I tell myself I’m okay to combat the voices that keep saying there must be something wrong with me. ┬áThere must be a reason that I’m alone for so long. There must be something I am doing or not doing or something that I am that makes it difficult for me to maintain or find a close connection to people. Something wrong with me that makes me want to flee when there are people around. That makes me feel like a ghost. that makes me act like a ghost.

I just let the voices take over just then. I’m okay. I’m a good person. I’m here.