as night comes,
the panic increases;
trapped inside
worried, anxious, hopeless
afraid of the dark again.
outside, free from confinement
worried, anxious, hopeful
wide open spaces 
too wide, too open.
planning when it's 
clear plans will fail
doing nothing because
doing has gone
terribly wrong
for some time
scared to choose
scared of options
scared of everything
that's different
from what has gone before
sure that what 
has gone before had to end
what's left? right now
just the coming night
shadow and darkness